I Found You

Hello again,

I'm probably really annoying but hey it's not like anyone actually reads this useless thing. Um so first of...it's raining! Omg I love the rain! So today I had a really good day which lately is sort of weird. See all of my friends have been like away on camp and I felt so alone at school and I ended up having to like socialise with all these people that I don't really talk to unless I absolutely have to... Today they were all back at school and I just felt...complete.

 

I didn't think I would but I missed them so much and now that they're back I feel so much better. I was so happy today. I haven't been happy in a while actually.

 

Lately I've been feeling really alone, like I have nobody I can really talk to. I just sort of wanted someone to just come up to me and give me a big hug and just shake me saying 'everything's going to be alright'. I was just grumpy and moody and sad.

 

But no one even really noticed.

 

I think maybe that's the worst part. Usually I'm really happy and talkative and laughing and everything but for the past couple of weeks I've just been...down. And no one noticed which made me feel worse.

Anyway, today the most amazing thing happened. The Wanted released their music video for their latest single, I Found You. It is the sexiest thing ever... Like I just. I can't.

The things I would do to Nathan Sykes ... So for the past hour or so I've been sitting in my computer raping the replay button of this video and I think I've watched it about twenty times now. It's unhealthy, I know. It's by far my favourite music video from them. It's just ... sex. It really is.

 

^^^ You're welcome :)

 

 

Do you what else I can't get enough of? The band All Time Low. They're just ah-maz-ing! No but seriously they're probably my favourite band. Alex Gaskarth is the fucking definition of sexy. Marianas Trench probably come close after that. Have you seen Josh Ramsay? He's fucking perfection.

 

 

 

 

Anyway enough of that.

 

 

Goodbye for now I must go :)



Long Time, No Blog

Wow, it's been forever.

I don't even know what made me think of this because so much has happened in the past year and I didn't remember anything I'd written. It's funny reading back on all the stupid thoughts and seeing how much I've changed and grown up in some ways.

 

Remember that Alex guy I mentioned like twenty years ago? Yeah well we got together, broke up.

I don't think I've ever experienced something as emotionally painful as going through a break up like that.

 

I mean to be fair we didn't really break up, he had to move states and we ended things.

Basically we'd been going together for a few months, nothing serious it was all just fun. I was in love with him, not that I ever admitted it to anyone...Anyway a few weeks after he'd left I decided to text him and he admitted he'd loved me too and all that bullshit but we will probably never see each other again.

 

It's weird though, I used to be good friends with him and his mates and when he left I've just become so much closer to all his other friends.

One of them, Jake, is a total player but I can't seem to shake him. He's got under my skin and I can't help but love him. He's awesome. We're really close and he's told me things that no one else knows.

 

It's nice having a guy friend that you can talk to, they don't care as much as girls.

 

Okay, my friends think it's about time I get back into the world of dating and I think I'm finally ready. Jake has told me a lot about what Alex was really like and whether it's lies or not it's helped me move on.

 

My best friend, Abs, she seems to think that there's something going on with this guy in my classes. His name is Noah. I think i like him. He's really, really nice. He holds doors open for me, asks me how I'm going, does silly cards tricks to make me smile. Everything a good guy should do. But i just can't shake this feelings I have. He's just..I don't know....

 

Also he reminds me of the Notebook. God I love that movie. I think it's sort of like a law with girls, to love The Notebook. I don't think I've ever met a girl who dislikes it..

 

Anyway, I got a new dog and he's just the cutest thing ever! He's so snugly and comforting! My family want to call him Benji but I don't like that name. I've been calling him Bubs, which I know, is even worse.

Benji it is I think.

 

Bye, bye for now the like one lovely person of you who may actually read this.

 

Lola :)